Sunday, 7 June 2009

We are worthy

There is a very thought provoking post on Angel's blog about self worth.
I have to hold my hands up and say I'm as guilty as anyone of thinking that for one reason or another that I'm not worthy of any number of things. Why do we do that to ourselves?
When Himself and I took out special trip last year I found the most gorgeous notebook in a shop and my lovely husband wanted to buy it for me but I wouldn't let him. I said that I would never use it and I probably wouldn't. It was such a beautiful thing that it deserved beautiful writing and I didn't think no hang on I know that my handwriting would not do it justice.
Come to think of it I already have a beautiful notebook that's been sitting in a drawer for years. It has an angel on the front and the word "dreams." Does anyone else find the picture on the front of my book and the postee of the post that inspired this spooky. I think that I am meant to get that book out (I think I know which drawer it's in) and write in it. I won't beat myself up that my handwriting isn't beautiful as long as the thoughts are.
Angel also challenged us to come up with 10 positive things about ourselves which I am going to give that a go. Right here, right now.
1. I have hung onto the man of my dreams for nearly 30 years (Oh my God! how can it be that long?)
2. I have raised 2 strong, healthy independent young men.
3. I always say hello to the foreign bloke who I pass on the way to work. he plays the same tune over and over on the accordion and almost everybody ignores him.
4. I let my beautiful dog go when the time was right for her even though it broke my heart.
5. I make a wicked sponge cake.
6. When we all had to organise a fundraising "fun day" two weeks ago the one I organised beat the target we were given by 90% and was at least double that of any other in the area. (Sorry - that sounds like a boast but hey what's wrong with that? I worked bloomin' hard and I came up with a great idea so yes well done me.)
7. I held it together during the dark time a couple of years ago.
8. I passed my "speech" exam with distinction. I know that one might be hard to believe for anyone who has heard me speak but I swear it's true.
9. I can iron a shirt in less than a minute.
10. My Yorkshire Puddings always rise.
Good grief that was harder than I thought it would be. I know some of them are a bit feeble but it's all I can come up with.


Angel Bluestocking said...

You see the ten ARE in there...well done you. My attempts were pitiful when I originally wrote this piece but I can probably scrape the ten together now.

It is amazing how many people this struck a chord with. Thanks for highlighting it

warm wishes

Gonna be a writer said...

It was my pleasure to highlight it. Thanks for writing it and causing a reaction. Finding 10 positive things was really difficult. Like you said in your post I expect it would be much easier to find 10 negative.

Karen said...

Excellent post and definitely strikes a chord.

Your ten things are worthy of being extemely proud of yourself :o)

Gonna be a writer said...

Thanks Karen. I think that it is very easy for someone to knock themselves for what they can't do or what's wrong in their life but I've learnt in the past couple of years that those things generally aren't that important.

Anonymous said...

Hmm, I've never really understood the "collecting but not using" attitude. Like fine wine collectors, for example. I always want to shout at them to get on, drink the stuff and enjoy it.

Good ten positives! Though I don't really understand #9 ;oP

Gonna be a writer said...

Captain you surprise me. There is an art to ironing a shirt in less than a minute. It's taken me years to perfect it and I am quite proud of it. The secret is doing it in a certain order and having a good iron.
I've never understood wine collectors either. Why would you want to own a bottle of something that is wonderful and just let the bottle gather dust? To my mind a good wine is meant to be enjoyed. It's like owning a beautiful painting and keeping it locked away. What's the point?